It's a very sad feeling when you know that another person's friendship is valued over yours. It has come to a point that I even asked myself what I did wrong to be treated the way she has treated me.
I didn't blog about this because there were still some items left hanging in the air. But now, I just don't care. I don't care if she reads this nor do I care about how people will feel about me when they read this. I was just so hurt of being mistreated that I just want to scream. L and the Bomb have been really supportive in that, I know, sometimes, they feel that I am a broken record but they still answer my phonecalls.
It all started with money. You know when they say that don't lend money to your friends because it might be the start of something bad, I now consider this as true. I know most of you will say that it's just money, not worth losing a friendship over. I agree. But when a person treats you badly because of money, that's a different matter.
To make a long story short, I lost a friend over money. I would've understood if she just told me that she couldn't afford to pay me but to be lied to and to lie to our friends is just unacceptable. At the same time she owed me money, she owed our other friend money. She paid our friend in full whereas she left me hanging for several months with several promises broken.
As most of you know, I am not the most patient person. I try to be, but this time, my patience was really tested. She told me promises that I believed and even told our friends that she has already paid me and that I was the one who made a mistake. I had to ask friends to help me get in touch with her because she was no longer answering my phonecalls or my text messages. She made me wait for a phonecall that never happened last Saturday when I told her to call me any time to let me know where I can pick up the money.
Finally, on Sunday, I asked a friend to send her an SMS. This was the same friend that she paid in full. And you know what, that same day, I got half of my money. It made me realize that she valued that friendship over ours. She paid her in full, and she readily reacted when she sent her a message.
I think I know where I stand.
DA GANDA blogged @ 3/06/2006 03:23:00 PM