While Pen is starting with school again, I have decided to stop from school. Finally got the grades for both my subjects and the average comes down to below average. Yesterday, I was talking to B and telling him that it takes some amount of failure to realize that you can't have it all. Even if you try your hardest. This may be my failure. Can't blame it on bad luck. I just don't have enough time and energy to handle working in Cavite, taking the shuttle bus everyday and then going to school on some days. I can't even study when I get home because by then, I'll be tired from the travel and would rather take time to talk to people at home than study. Some people tried to convince me to continue, even if I take a lighter load this term. I was confused for quite a number of days. But still it boiled down to my decision: I just can't take the load anymore. At times when I am in the office, I worry about how I'm going to pass the subject, but when I am out of the office, I worry about the stuff I left because I don't have time. Like Ruthie said, it's a constant catching up. Everything just went out of sync. And honestly, I would rather excel at one thing and not have everything, rather than having everything but having my best effort be mediocre. So there, I've said it.

DA GANDA blogged @ 9/04/2003 04:13:00 PM