What has happened to me?
My propensity to be more pakikay has gone stronger as each day passes by.
I have noticed a couple of things about me that I usually do not do. When I was in college, I was content wearing shorts, a tshirt and birkenstocks for class. I usually do not bother with things such as combing my hair. I don't even wear pagirly blouses. I was content to bring out the siga in me.
I think I've changed. For one, I finally gave in to DA POGI's pleads that I grow my hair. Now that I am at it for a year now, I can't imagine not having shoulder length hair. Times will come when I think about my short hair, but everytime it does, I just think about what a waste it would be if I cut it. It doesn't look that good either. It's just I feel more lady like with my hair on my shoulders.
My bespren would attest to this: I don't like combing my hair. But it seems with the advent of my hitting kikay-hood, I have come to spend more and more time in front of the mirror. Heck! Buying stuff for my hair even excites me. Everytime I go to SM, I always pass by the area where they sell ponytails and stuff. I would be the correct person to ask if you need something to tie your hair.
Another thing: I always worry about how I smell. It's not that I smelled like a pig sty before. Now, I'm just more conscious. Investing money on colognes that will make me smell better. Even the shampoo I use should be the right smell for me. Now, I never leave home without spritzing on a dash of cologne.
Then another: I am now more conscious of what I wear. I have gained weight since graduation. I was content to hide it behind tshirts and jeans. But now, I find myself worrying if I looked fat with what I am wearing. It used to be a non-problem before. I even resorted to dieting so I'll lose some weight. ( I have since come to terms that I looked fatter than before but I am not fat.)
Ugh! It's not fun being a girl!
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Instant email from DA POGI:
"i do hope that you still find it fun to be a girl. : ) 'coz you make me feel happy.
i'm happy if you are and i feel proud to be your man.
you're not fat, just right. (at least you're not underweight like before) gaining weight makes you look better (i may have a biased opinion there. hehehe)
one thing is for sure... you're still my one and only love. =)"
Aaww! Shucks!
DA GANDA blogged @ 8/18/2002 08:06:00 PM
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